Feeling Down

On the eve of my first week at Health and Fitness School, I feel awash with homesickness for my old life. Perhaps triggered by my attempt to take on the largest of the challenges issued by the headmaster this week: no fizzy ale for two days. Yesterday was my first attempt and when I combined the lack of ale with a vegetarian dinner featuring broccoli...I lost all my enthusiasm for this project. I know that I want to be a Hero, that I will be looked up to and will be able to help others, but it's so hard. I hate wanting these things that make me feel so badly. I have allowed my low disposition to cancel two bouts of exercise this week. I need to refocus and find my motivation. Perhaps I should rely more heavily on my team - maybe that's why we move through the school in parties in the first place. Here's hoping I persevere at the boss encounter this weekend.